Heavy Heart

Recently I have been very caught up with work - stressed, busy, tired, disgruntled and dissatisfied. 

"I am not being paid enough."

"Life sucks."

Well, at least I have the good fortune of experiencing a "sucky life". 

I ask myself, "What was I doing last Monday, 23 August?"

Well I went to the office, rushed work, got annoyed at phone calls, went for due diligence, rushed due diligence, came back to the office, continued with more work, felt tired, but pressed on to finish my work before leaving for the day. I billed about 12 hours that day.

But in that same 12 hours, someone else in a difference place was suffering beyond what I could ever imagine. Someone else never made it past the 12th hour to experience stress or tiredness or anything ever again. 

I have always been one to be so aware of my mortality - everyone is equally susceptible to becoming a non-entity; suddenly, randomly, from whatever reason, and in whatever place. The victim of an unfortunate accident would never have thought the next minute would be his last. I am not one to think "this kind of thing will never happen to me".

And yet, time and again, I get caught up with all sorts of things in life and create artificial worries, anxiety and anger for myself.  

At times like this, I am reminded of what has always weighed at the back of my mind - We all will one day become an inconsequential fragment of history. Cherish every breath, savour every complaint. Even bad experiences should not be taken for granted.